Monday, October 15, 2012

daily outfit: on owning it all

I've been a little silent on the blog lately. Besides the fact that my beautiful and wonderful sister just married the love of her life this past weekend and I've been consumed with maid-of-honoring (fun! exhausting!) for the last however long, every time I start to write a post, it feels inauthentic. I look back at some of my favorite old posts: all silly, random, perfectly-tied-together musings, and I'm just not there right now, so I felt like I shouldn't say anything at all. But thanks to a good friend (hi, Gina :)), I was reminded why, yes indeed, I do still like taking pictures of my clothes and writing about things. You know, to be specific. 

top: f21; jeggings: kohl's (get the look!); boots: aldo

I've been thinking a lot lately about authenticity, particularly in the last few weeks. Owning every part of who I am is something I am always striving for, but it's not always easy. It's easy to pretend that you're always fun and and happy and silly, but it's not easy to see where you fall short and expose it to the world. It's easy to put on a cute face and say oh, sometimes, that you make mistakes, but it's much more difficult to stare your mistakes in the face and own them. 

In an effort to love every single part of myself + the incredibly fantastic people in my life, I've been practicing owning it all. Owning the fact that yes, I like to fancy myself a pretty happy, goofy, contented, polka-dot-wearing girl, but I also get easily frustrated, I am a chronic over-analyzer, and sometimes it's easier for me to put walls up than it is to take them down.

{lion photobomb!} 

But what I've learned, time and time again, is that just like you can catch more flies with honey than with vinegar, nobody's perfect, and admitting that to those closest to me always brings us closer together. I'm always happier when I admit my mistakes and my shortcomings, and it's the best way to grow. Shiny/happy/rainbow + sunshine-less though it may sometimes be. 

I wish I could wrap this up nicely with a neat little bow and call it a day, but I can't. I can, however, see the beauty in the fact that I'm a work in progress-- this, the act of being good with exactly you at exactly any given moment, is a process & a practice, not a destination to be reached. I was driving home from work today, mulling all of this over in typically congested rush hour traffic, and a car cut me off right as I was getting on the freeway. My initial instinct was to get a little road rage-y, but in that moment I realized it's not up to me to make any judgements on anyone else just based on one split-second occurrence. It's easier to blame somebody else, but it's better to remember that we're all human. When in doubt, be a little more compassionate and give a little love, and see what happens instead.

clearly, this is why my roommate is one of my favorite people in the universe. 

Also, if you see a lion statue, ride it. If you have the chance to wear polka-dots, do it. Don't take yourself too seriously, and whatever it is, don't be afraid to own it-- all of it. Be thankful. Cut yourself some slack. And when in doubt, just write about it :) 

What's your best advice? I want to hear it! Also: have you ridden a lion lately? It's pretty great.