Wednesday, December 30, 2015

2015 in review-- and also, hi. I'm alive!

Um... hi.

Can I just stop real quick and tell you that I've written and deleted and re-written about thirty sentences here? I'm not quite sure how to do this whole blog thing anymore, and yet: here I am. I've been feeling the urge to write again lately, but I had no idea if that meant here or elsewhere or if it would stay some sort of weird, intangible itch that just never quite got scratched.

Where have I been? Frankly, I've been off living a pretty spectacular life. I've started a new (killer, wonderful, super happy-making, meaningful) job, met (swoon), started dating (swooooon), moved in with (swoooooooon) the love of my life and started planning our futures together, I ran a half marathon and started tackling some health and healing stuff head-on-- long story short, life has been gooood. And I just haven't felt the need to write about it.

And I seriously (seriously seriously) (also, does not writing for approx. one hundred years mean excessive parentheses aren't trendy anymore? shoot.) considered popping in here one last time to say hey! thanks for reading! I'm out. And yet, I didn't. I couldn't. There was a tiny little piece of me that wanted to keep this space open in case I ever felt the need to come back and (holy long-winded, Mary), here I am. I'll stop rambling now.

I came across this reflective post from Holly (fellow lapsed-and-relapsed blogger) and for the first time, I thought: hey! I want to write about that! So what better way to dip back in (maybe) to the writing world than with an easy-peasy template. If there is anyone in the universe still checking in here, feel free to play along in the comments. (Though I'm fairly certain I've lost all my readers like, seven lifetimes ago. I don't blame you. ;))

1. What did you do in 2015 that you’d never done before?
I MOVED IN WITH A BOY. Luckily, I've learned cooties aren't real.
I started a big-girl job that actually pays me, like, actual currency. I had a bit of a false start with a terrible place in 2014, but 2015 fixed all that. I love my job.
I fell in looooove. (smoosh smoosh). Technically, this happened in 2014 and it's monumental enough that I feel I should mention it in the 18 months I've been radio silent. He's pretty great. 

shmoopin' off into the sunset (literally)

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions and will you make more for next year?
Yes. Maybe? I think so. You all know I'm more of a resolutions-as-I-go kinda girl, but I lived my life to a pretty great fullest this past year. And DUH. Right off the bat, my biggest resolution is to keep heading down this path of autoimmune healing-- because it's been kinda transformative and got me feeling awesome. Second is to read at least two books a month. Third is to have more fun and be more authentic and also save some money and  also also figure out how to make popsicles at home so I don't spend my life savings on them during the summertime. It's all relative.

3. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?
Step one: fancy NYE prixe fixe dinner out with my love and two of our favorite humans (ie. the couple that introduced us! Woo hoo!)
Step two: roll home, stuffed full of great food
Step three: put on our pjs, get champagne tipsy and try not to fall asleep before the ball drops at midnight
Step four: brunch.

4. Did anyone close to you give birth? Did anyone close to you die?
Not that I remember-- although two of my favorite babies have turned into tiny awesome humans throughout the course of this year, and I count myself incredi-lucky to get to be their auntie. Also incredible lucky to say we haven't lost anyone this year. Life is good.

5. Did you travel this year?
Minneapolis for our anniversary! It was super fun to show J my old stomping grounds. Beyond that, we spent the better part (as in, almost the whole thing) of our first year together back and forth between Milwaukee and Chicago in a distance-based relationship and I did not enjoy that. So good to get to pester that dude with my love antics on a daily-basis instead of only twice weekly :)

cherries! spoons! love!
6. What would like to have in 2016 that you lacked in 2015?
Stellar health (werkin' on it). More time to read. Time to myself. A legit vacation filled with relaxing and sightseeing and maybe even a beach if I'm lucky.

7. What moment from 2015 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Probably and definitely movin' in with that dude of mine. Have I expounded on this enough yet, you guys? It was a good year.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Starting a job I love that is super-duper fulfilling. Taking on some serious healing protocols and committing to them all the way. Not easy, but way worth it.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Hmm-- a tricky one. I am of the mind that all I've done this year has taught me important lessons, so I'm struggling to categorize any of my experiences as failures. But as always, I'm learning how to say no to more things that don't matter, say HELL YES to the things that do, speak my truth, take care of myself, and all that jazz. More of all that in 2016, please and thanks.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
NOPE. Thankfully. I did struggle with what I now recognize as an autoimmune flare in the background for the majority of my year, likely as a result of stress and not paying total attention to the food I eat and the choices I make. I didn't realize just how acutely that was affecting my daily life until I started switching things up and experienced like, vibrant-feel-good-ness. Imma be pursuing that more, you can bet your bottom dollar.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Um? I'm not a big-purchase kinda girl. The "Please Wipe Your G*ddamn Feet" print we bought together as the first official purchase for our apartment seems like a worthy one for this category. I do love it :) ALSO: experiences. We had a lotta good ones this year!

terrible quality picture. but favorite. print. ever.

12. Where did most of your money go?
Student loans. Did you know they make you pay those back after grad school? BOO. Other than that, good quality food. Sorry not sorry, $12/lb grass-fed beef that I'm eating off of my mismatched hand-me-down dinner plates!

13. What song will always remind you of 2015?
No judgement: the Lava song from the Pixar short. Why yes, I am a grown-up, thanks!

14. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Travel. Intentional free-time-spending.

15. What do you wish you’d done less of?
 Watching tv. Worrying about silly things. Not saying what I'm thinking/feeling. (ps. feels SO GOOD to let go of that one.)

16. Compared to this time last year, are you:
Happier or sadder? Happier. And I was already pretty happy this time last year.
Thinner or fatter? Same! I'll take it.
 Richer or Poorer? Richer. It's all relative, though. I still work for a non-profit. ;)

17. What was the best book you read?
 Ooh! I loved 11/22/63. And also The Martian. And Why Not Me? And Carry on, Warrior. And I'm reading Eligible right now and DEVOURING it. 

books courtesy blog-friend-bailey. thanks, lady!
18. Greatest Musical Discovery
 2015 was the year of the podcast, man. But that's another topic for another day.

19. What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?
 I turned 26 in June and spent the day off, being made breakfast in bed by my love, took a private yoga class with my sister, got pedis with my mama, and was made a 5-course grilled dinner by that awesome dude of mine, and spent the evening at an outdoor concert in the park with twenty of my nearest and dearest. It. was. awesome.

20. Greatest Food Discovery
 Am I a lame-o for saying plantains? Because I discovered I LOVE THEM.

21. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned. Life is too short to spend it being inauthentic-- in your words, your actions, your life. It's really really (really) good to be content with the simple things. 

And that's all she wrote, 2015! I hope to be back soon, but I'm not going to force it. In the meantime, regardless of what comes next for this here blog, I hope you know how much you all have meant to me in this space, and I'm forever grateful that you've read the words I write. Wishing that your 2016 is full of hope and life and a little magic and lots of chocolate and/or champagne. Your pick. :)

th-th-th-that's all, folks! ;)